A THIN RAY OF LIGHT

When words stop
Flowing
And the silence is
Dominate
I worry
That I have slipped
Into that cold dark
Place
I have lived so much
Of my life inside of

Such a contrast
From the
Warmth
Light
Flow
Of the world
With you

A world of
Love
Belonging
Connection
Where words
Came easy
And reached out
And felt heard

Nothing is wrong
Everything is wrong
Days become nights
Nights become days
Infinite illusions
Endless delusions
Replace creations
Cover up joy

I am who I am in
Relation to you
In your listening
Mirrored back
From your heart
From your eyes

When words stop
Flowing
I cease to hear
Anything
I can grab onto
To hold me in place
To stop the slow
Disappearance
Of life force

A small dog’s heartbeat
The ocean rhythms
Growth on the bamboo
I know I am still here
Time has passed
Still, I miss
The me
That exists when
You are here

Over many months
Many months over
Hope has reduced
To a thin ray of light
Barely visible
Reduced back to
Where it was
Before
You showed up
Again

Life without you
Is the norm