THE SUBSTITUTE

 

Looking at your photo
My substitute for real-life
I can feel your skin, taste the salt, smell your sweetness

I feel possessed
Your spell is stronger than I am, I cannot break it

I don’t want to break it
I like the swoon-factor, the dizziness, the blood rushing to my clit … I could throb all night & not tire of it
Beg for more, wallow in it, crank it up another notch
And another and another
Til I am screaming from your possession

I take you on
In all your heat, with all my fear
I want you
Now, now, whenever, forever, NOW

You are not my savior
But I have saved myself for you
I am not your answer
But I answer to you

Not a moment can pass without me feeling you
Not a moment can pass without me desiring you
Not a moment can pass without you
Again

I am here
Open
Waiting
Wild
Yours

You can take me or give to me
You can love me or be loved by me

We can fuck or make love
Not none no one … no no
Not even a choice … I have no choice
I am yours

If I had a choice
I would still be yours

What are you going to do with me now?
Tomorrow? The next day? Next week? Next month? Next year?
I am going to love you

Looking at your photo
The substitute is better than any real-life I have ever had

You will be better than the substitute